Random thoughts from a 3 am feeding
*Baby cries*
What’s the rule again? Start feeding with the breast the baby fed on last? Uggh, I can’t remember which one I fed him from. Which one looks less full…
Edward Cullen. He’d make a perfect nanny. He doesn’t sleep. All he has to do is wake me up when the baby cries and change the baby’s diaper so I can get extra sleep. Burp the baby too. Just have to make sure he’s hunted enough before babysitting duties.
Crap. I forgot to ask for a doctor’s certificate and my hospital records for my SSS reimbursement. When the heck will I have time to go back to the hospital for that? Ugggh.
Baby’s fallen asleep on the breast. Maybe he’s done? Oh wait, he was just resting.
I wonder when I can fit into my jeans again.
This is the most disorganized I’ve ever felt. I feel I have no control over anything! If I ever succumb to post-partum depression, this will most likely be the cause. Lack of control.
He smiled! My baby smiled! Sure it can be a gassy smile but it was a smile nonetheless. Aww, baby. Who cares if the room’s a mess? Who cares if I still have a bunch of files to organize? They can wait. Just keep on smiling for me.
He’s done. Time to burp.
He farted instead of burping. That counts, right?
He’s asleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. Hurrah, hurrah. I can finally get some sleep.
…
*Baby cries*
Oh man, what time is it?
4 am?! I was only asleep for 30 minutes?
What’s the rule again? Start feeding with the breast the baby fed on last? Uggh, I can’t remember which one I fed him from. Which one looks less full…
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September 7th, 2009 at 9:02 am
oh toni.. the fact that you can still blog makes so proud of your time management
yknow though.. if edward is to be your nanny, i don’t think you’ll fall back to sleep at all, what with all those times spent just staring at him, teehe! anyways, keep those smiles coming and those stories pouring.. take care!
September 7th, 2009 at 9:35 am
The bane of motherhood… hehe
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September 7th, 2009 at 4:39 pm
am reading your entry at 330am chicago time…six month on the way and feeling sleepless after countless potty trips
good luck toni! i know things will get better, i heard they sleep through the night around 3 months of age
September 7th, 2009 at 5:08 pm
My keycode word is “laugh.”
Hugs, girl! It’s great that you still have your positive spirit despite the sleeplessness, etc.! I so agree about the “lack of control” bit: it makes us think, ‘no?, that parenthood is really about letting go. In a good way.
And if it gets really hard, manood ka na lang ng early episodes ng Jon and Kate Plus Eight, hehehe!
Oh and since you’re breastfeeding, the weight will disappear in a *SNAP*!
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September 7th, 2009 at 6:10 pm
Ha ha ha! I love the way you wove Edward into that!
As for the rest…welcome to motherhood. I feel your pain and am so glad that I’m not losing that sleep anymore. On the other hand, I do miss my teeny, cuddly babies. Now mine are more interested in Playstation, television and playing with their friends!
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September 7th, 2009 at 7:41 pm
hang in there Toni, but i know as long as Timmy keeps on smiling at you everything will come easier!
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September 8th, 2009 at 8:47 am
Welcome to the world of Motherhood, take note, no resignation there!
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September 8th, 2009 at 10:29 am
So proud (& envious) of your breastfeeding success!
Hang in there, Toni, I promise it’ll get better. Quino’s turning 3 months tomorrow and he sleeps in 4-hr blocks now (hurray!) 
And though it may not look and feel like it, these are the best days of our lives! 
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September 8th, 2009 at 8:59 pm
It’s nice to know that you are breastfeeding Timmy. If you’re interested, Rustan’s Makati will be holding it’s Baby Symposium with the theme “It’s Baby’s Time to Shine” on September 19. One of the invited speakers will be tackling about being bilingual at infantry stage. Godbless
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September 9th, 2009 at 2:02 am
I loved your early morning (and sleepless) thoughts. You made me smile so big with that Edward Cullen as nanny! And probably, Alice, too. =)
September 9th, 2009 at 4:58 am
toni, you’re so tiny! the pounds will melt off! guaranteed. especially since you breastfeeding! i weigh less than i did before i got pregnant and i’ve only been to the gym exactly one time since 2005! hahah…
i read somewhere that moms put a safety pin by the bra-strap of the boob they last used to remember for next time.
i know how exhausted you must be (i’m still exhausted), but i’m sure you’ll fly through these “twilight months” in no time…i’d def. ask rosalie to babysit though! hahah
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September 9th, 2009 at 6:30 am
Ah yes, I can remember those newborn days. They will pass very quickly (although it doesn’t seem like it at the moment) and you will smile remembering them.
September 9th, 2009 at 9:38 am
hi toni!
don’t worry you are not alone. i had moments too when while breastfeeding kade and i both fell asleep hahaha!
i can’t believe you can still blog.
hang in there! and congrats on timmy’s smile even if 90% of it may be from gas. =)
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September 9th, 2009 at 1:28 pm
Of course you had to bring Edward Cullen into it, yes? *hugs* Thanks for putting a smile on my face, Toni & Timmy <3
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September 9th, 2009 at 6:38 pm
i’m with you toni! repeat after me, “this too shall pass”, “this too shall pass”, “this too shall pass”…hahahahaha
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September 9th, 2009 at 7:37 pm
lmao! sabay pa tayo nagigising! i can so relate!
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September 9th, 2009 at 9:44 pm
i think having edward cullen as your baby’s nanny would be hazardous to both you and your baby! he doesn’t crave for milk, you know.
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September 10th, 2009 at 2:30 pm
Hi Toni! Congratulations on your decision to breastfeed, it’s really the best thing you can do for Timmy
I breastfed exclusively for about 1 1/2 yrs, Gabby is now 1 yr 9 mos. and thank God he is really healthy. He rarely gets sick, there was a time everyone in the house got flu and colds (including me and his daddy)… except for Gabby! And the few times he catches the sniffles, it’s very minor and doesn’t progress to a full blown cold/cough. And I really believe it’s primarily due to the breastfeeding 
Anyway, I can so relate to what you’re going through, the memories of the sleepless nights, the confusion on where he fed last, and the frustration with logging the intervals between feedings and how long he’s been on each breast, not to mention the PAIN during the first weeks—are still very fresh in my mind. But I had a lifesaver back then, if you have a friend/relative coming home from the U.S. soon, or if you can have this shipped to you asap, I highly recommend this gadget — http://www.amazon.com/Itzbeen-Baby-Care-Timer-Blue/dp/B000MEB3GE/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=baby-products&qid=1252563002&sr=8-1 . It’s called Itzbeen, it’s a timer that very very conveniently tracks how long he’s been on each breast, feeding intervals, AND where he nursed last! My husband being the gadget person that he was (and him being the researcher of everything and anything for the baby) showed it to me while I was pregnant, but I dismissed it. After one week of breastfeeding, I was desperate for help so we had this shipped through Johnny Air Cargo. I got it in a week’s time, and I can’t imagine how I would have survived without it! And on the side, it can also track intervals between nappy changes, his sleeping time, or even intervals between medicines if he’s taking any. Totally worth it, totally indispensible for me
Hope this helps, and if you have any, as in ANY breastfeeding question, do email me. After a year and a half, and being a working mom like you, I can say with conviction that I am a breastfeeding expert already
Enjoy this time with Timmy, believe me, time will fly so fast and you’ll miss this soon
September 11th, 2009 at 11:52 am
Despite the slightly whiny tone, which is perfectly normal, I’m sure you’re loving this bonding moment with Timmy. Precious.
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September 19th, 2009 at 7:04 pm
believe it or not, things will get better in a few weeks (or months) toni
but i don’t think mothers will be able to get a good night’s sleep anymore. because when kids turn into teenagers, we then have to stay up waiting for them to get home from gimicks. and even when they have flown the nest, we will stay up wondering what our children are up to, lol.
sa ngayun, even my 7 year old still wakes me up in the middle of the night, especially when he has to visit the john
so it’s part and package of being a mum. i’m still a zombie at this point, with my 9monther siopao and the kuya, but my brain has coped with it and is starting to function normally again (who know’s what’s normal at this point). lol.
enjoy the bonding time
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